It's the feeling again...

Don't know why the feeling of anxiety comes again...worry here and there...i really think that life is like a circle or something...coz it goes up and down....for now, my life is going downward...haizzzz....nothing seems to work for me....haizzz....sitting here outside of LT4...brings back how lonely i was when i first came to SG....but slowly i managed to find great ppl here and become friends afterward.....last sem's results is the worst results ever....really hope i can catch up...fast...still got three more sems before i graduate....haizzzz......hope and work hard are the only thing that i can do now.....there are things that i can only keep it to myself....looking at the future ahead, it's quite blur for me.....i only hope can get a job after i graduate and clear all my loans in three years, after that start to save money........and go back when the time is right......ermm...i can't really stand the life here, it's too stressful and there is nobody and nothing for me to worry about.....ahhh...just reminded me,.... nobody.....ppl said it's better to find someone during one's education period coz after one starts to work, it's hard to find one.....ha.....does that means that i only have one and a half year to search for mine?......hahaha.....it sure looks like search for a house or else the price going to go up....haha....for me i think it will come when only-God-knows time is right.........ha......going back to the feeling thingy....when it comes, i'll try to be optimistic and it works for me....haha....hope it really a good way to overcome my problems........